After everything I've tried, why is my life still not working?
You're not lazy. You haven't missed a step. And it isn't your fault.
There's a reason. And it's not what the self-help world has been telling you. It's not your mindset. It's not your habits. It's not that you haven't found the right method yet. Your mind has slipped into a mode that was never designed for living well - and once that happens, everything becomes harder than it should be. Nothing is wrong with you. You just haven't been shown how you actually work.